I've been thinking for a couple of weeks about how much my life has changed in a year. A broken heart, a better credit score, a degree, a concussion, and a new town can do that to a girl, ya know? I'm in a completely new place in all facets of my life. I find it a little scary. I feel like no one has ever gone where I'm going (read that as: no one I know has the same life as me). Anyway, I'm 22 years old, on top of the world. I have no one to answer to, debt free, educated, in possession of something I call a "memory journal," and I can make a fresh start.
I am stronger than I ever thought I could be. I am happy, but I don't know where my treasure lies. I'm a planner (I have a degree in it), so it kind of stresses me out to not know where this crazy train I call "My Life" is headed. A year and a half ago, I thought on this day I would: be a high school English teacher, engaged, and living in the greater Dallas/ Fort Worth area. FRIENDS, none of those things worked out for me. The Lord must have fallen of his heavenly throne laughing at my plans.
Deciding to lay down your worries and other burdens is easy. The actual task is much harder. I know I'm struggling to lay it all down, my progress is slow.
Here's what I have done so far:
Highlighting in my Bible. This recent change was right up there with going out with out polished toes (NEVER, NEVER, NEVER to be done!). Now I sort of like the idea (Bible only). It's easier to see things that can soothe my heart (via the highlighting & the fact that it's a large print Bible [thanks Aunt Mary]).
Rolling with the flow. Life is no longer about just my agenda. It can't be. I am embarking on a new journey that no longer has a time frame. I have my entire life to accomplish goals, so now I can concentrate on small things: being happy everyday.
Short list, but I told you, it's hard.
I titled my blog Take Me As I Am because I feel more like me than I ever have in my life. I am no longer trying to please anyone. I am what I am, and we don't have to be friends. That is so freeing.
This post is titled Watch Me As I Go because I intend on growing with this blog, or at least have a semi-frequent diary entry situation to help jog my memory (remember: concussion).
Finally, this little GEM -> http://lovemeorhatemeimjaybaby.blogspot.com/ <- All thanks to my Real Life Best Friend (RLBF), Alex. follow that mess @ http://dauphingal.blogspot.com/
